9 Weeks! (9w)

"I'm swimming and moving now, but my mummy doesn't know it!"

Happy 9 Weeks today baby!

Had my first chuck this morning - semi-self inflicted though so I don't know that it counts!! I had taken my one of my tablets this morning, ate my weetbix and then tried to have my other tablet. However, my gag reflex has been extra sensitive lately and I don't think I took enough water when I was swallowing. Well... that set me off and up came my breakfast as soon as I felt the tablet sliding down my throat. Not sure if it also came back up again (nothing more gross than sifting through weetbix vomit in the sink looking for a tablet...ewwwww!) so I decided not to take another one just in case.

I was driving in to work this morning, and for some reason started thinking about the baby's room. I suddenly had this vision of looking at our little baby lying peacefully asleep in their cot... and that was it! Teary me returned! What a complete sook...It was so beautiful though. I can't wait to meet our miracle fighter.

I read something the other day about "What people don't tell you about pregnancy, birth or baby". Most of it was things like the lack of sleep, the embarassing labour side-effects etc. But one person wrote this:

Can I just say the one thing that I wasn't prepared for was how amazingly wonderful the whole experience of having my baby out in the world was. Nobody tells you that no matter how emotional you were during the pg nothing prepares you for the intense joy that makes you want to cry just thinking about her and holding her. Nobody tells you that the feelings you and your partner have for each other just multiply when you watch each other caring for this incredible new life you've helped bring into the world. Nobody tells you that you feel so much elation and wonder that you think you want to do it again and again and again!

The first mothers day brings with it the most shocking realisation that it's your day now, not just your Mum's. My husband told me he'd never driven so slowly and carefully as when he took us home from hospital.

Now I truly understand how a mother's soul is completely wrapped up in her child. I didn't know that I would wake during the night and panic because I couldn't find her right beside me. It's like she's still a part of me but not inside of me anymore.

It is so amazing watching her grow and develop every day. When I watch her face as I walk around with her I realise that she's seeing things for the first time and it gives me a new appreciation for the world around us. When I'm talking to her she concentrates so intently on what I'm saying that I feel like I'm going to burst. I can't believe I'm the most important person in the world to her! To have that position is humbling and I feel I can't possibly have done anything to deserve it.

Now THAT'S what I want...