Hump week (8w;1d)

I have a friend that introduced me to 'hump' day about 12 months ago. I remember almost choking on my sandwich when she told me over the phone, thinking her dirty mind was up to something. "No" she said. "Hump day is today (Wednesday). It's the hump in the week that you just need to get over, and then it's all downhill from there".

And you know... she's right. I now worship hump day and it's amazing how faster the week feels when you celebrate it!

And that's how I'm feeling at the moment too. Week eight is hump week. It's the week when your chance of miscarriage starts to significantly decrease so I've decided to just try and get through these next two weeks before my scan (providing the bleeding and cramping etc doesn't get really bad) and wait it out. Given all of the complications that I've had, it would be so easy to give in and have a scan, but I have to keep reminding myself it won't change anything, and won't help.

On the upside, the bleeding has stopped (I won't say for now, as I hope it won't ever happen again!). Cramping is still there, but that I can live with. My baby is a fighter and putting up with all of the curve balls my body (as fucked up as it is) is trying to throw at it.

So, I'm soldiering on - living each day as it comes, and giving my body as much rest as I can when I'm at home (any excuse to lay all over the couch and not lift a finger, or at least, that's what DH likes to think). God he's been amazing though. He will do anything, without question, if he knows slightly it will help. He's so attentive and wonderful, and is never dismissive of my feelings no matter how irrational I can feel at this crucial stage. I must admit that with the complications I've had I feel like I'm letting him down in stages. He tells me to stop being ridiculous, but it's true. I know I can't really do anything about it but it doesn't stop you feeling that way I guess. But what an angel - my absolute shining star. I am so blessed to be able to be the mother of his future child - and I know the journey we've travelled together to get here (ongoing that it is) will only make the end result that much sweeter.