Mixed emotions (7w;5d)

Yesterday we had a wonderful day at home. It was DH's birthday on Thursday and I had organised a small surprise get together at home for him. Most people turned up which was lovely (although you always have the few that don't!) and he had a wonderful time. It was so nice seeing him so happy, and with everyone there to share the day with him.

Saturday I started cleaning the house for the event, but took a turn for the worst. I don't know if it was the vigorous cleaning that did it, but I started to spot again. Just brown spotting, and only when I wiped (like at the beginning) but I was petrified. After DH left for work, I rang mum in tears and she and dad came over to help me finish the clean while DH was at work. I was so grateful and appreciative of their help.

I thought the rest would do me good, but again - I think Sunday was too much for me, as this morning when I woke up I had more bleeding - this time bright, red new blood - no more brown spotting. I didn't know what to do. I mean, I know we had the scan last time and everything was ok, and Dr said he didn't know what was causing the bleeding last time. I'm still cramping as well, which led Dr to believe that the bleeding might have been caused because my uterus was irritated by the pregnancy. God, I'm so scared... I'm here at work because I have to be here today - well, really I can't afford to take any time off but I just don't know that it's best I'm here. I really should be in bed and resting... I just don't know what to do. Please, let everything be ok. I don't think I can bare this. Every day I feel like I'm treading on eggshells and I don't know what to do about it...