Quick! Undie check (C4;CD22)

Honestly, I think the staff at work must think I have the trots.

I must be making loo stops every hour or so just to see if I have any spotting yet after finishing the provera. Maybe I should just tell them I'm experiencing bladder control issues and see what they say... nah, too obvious. Maybe I should say I have a weird OCD that involves me checking to make sure I'm still wearing undies (closer to the truth). Or, maybe I should run out of my office screaming "Fire!! Fire!!" and run back from the loo each time with a glass of water and throw it over someone as I run back to my office.

I'm so anxious about getting AF sooner rather than later at the moment. I'm almost excited about the prospect of the FSH injectables (in that sad, delusional self-multiating kind of way - after all, people get tattoos for fun, don't they?) in that Dr has basically assured me I will ovulate (it just depends on how high he has to go in doseage) so I'm impatiently waiting for AF to appear so I can move on and get on with it!

Just realised today that's it's been 9 months now since we first started TTC. Damn - 9 months! I can't believe it's been that long already as it's feels like we've barely moved forward this whole time (albeit, we've learned a lot about ourselves and our health in these past 9 months than I have my whole life). Who would have thought that something classed as 'the most natural thing on earth' can be so unnatural and difficult in every way.

To top it all off, I have recently been getting the 'So when are you going to start trying for a baby?' question. Grrr, I feel like carrying around a big mallet 24/7 just so I have one available to wallop people over the head when they ask me that question. Someone once said the only way to appropriately answer that question when you've been having trouble conceiving is to say: 'Not sure - when are you thinking of having your face lift?'. I think it's true...

In any event, onwards and upwards. Must keep ploughing on and staying strong - must, must must.