The ovulation merry-go-round (C3;CD12)

Had my twelve day scan again with my substitute Dr as my usual Dr is on holidays. She was a lot nicer this time and I made sure I asked all of the questions I wanted to ask.

However, again - nothing happening in the ovulation department. After last month, albeit I ovulated late, at least from memory at the 12 day scan there was something going on - a 9mm if I remember correctly. Today... zip.

I also asked about my short luteal phase - she said I might have to have another injection during that time to stimulate my body to produce more progesterone. Either that or it was a progesterone injection. In any event... it's another jab in the scheme of things, so does it really matter?!

Mood has plummeted now dramatically as well and I'm feeling completely down. I know I really shouldn't be so hard on myself and that there are so many people in a worse position that us right now, but we just keep hitting these hurdles and I all I want to do is be able to know that everything is going to turn out ok. But the reality is, it might not. We might still be in this position years down the track. I don't know how I could handle that emotionally.

I also found out that if we move to IVF our first cycle out of pocket is about $3200. $3200... we just don't have it. And so that's the first cycle... what if it doesn't work... how do we afford to keep doing it until it does? Where does it end...?

I have another appointment rebooked for 7am next Wednesday. She said to start using OPKs from Monday so I will... here's hoping at least. It's all I can do.