Why can't it be me? (C2;CD29;7DPO)

We had a farewell for one of the women at work today. She's 6 months pregnant and having the last 12 weeks off work before her baby is due.

Two other women at work are pregnant at the moment too, and they're all due within 2 months of each other. One of them is even carrying twins.

Everyone at the farewell kept talking about how fertile everyone was, and how there must be something in the water. I started off really well - I was genuinely happy for her, and just generally excited about the miracle of a new baby in this world. The guy who gave the speech on behalf of everyone is a new dad himself (his wife also now pregnant too at the moment with their second child) and it was very appropriate for him to speak.

But, it just seemed to all hit me like a tonne of bricks after a while - they're all pregnant and I'm not. There is only one other senior girl here who is not pregnant, and then there's me. I then thought 'Maybe she's also having problems', and then I thought 'Maybe she doesn't want kids yet, and wants to advance her career more first... who knows'. I think on the whole though, I'm doing quite well generally. Sure, I get teary and upset from time to time - but it's not normally out of jealousy. It's normally because I am still so taken by the miracle of life and birth that I get so emotional! Yes, I know. No need to snigger. Truth anyway.

My temps are still up which is good. I am counting down the days until I can test and have been trying to read up on which brands I should test with that are reliable with early results. I am now thinking the 50 pack of eBay ones I bought are not so good, but I'd rather buy some more and get a proper result, than sweat over the cheaper ones not working.

Until next time...